￼By Indigo Sky 4/11/18
I was sucked into the whirlpool
of life, living for others and
trying to live up to the expectations of being a successful artist.
I remember being immersed
In numerous projects that I would become overwhelmed.
My typical day would consist of
forcing myself out of bed after barely sleeping 4 or 5 hours, thanks to my anxiety related insomnia, that would kick in on the night of an audition.
I would toss and turn and obsess over getting the lyrics and notes right.
So after waking up I would make a pot of coffee and gulp down 2 cups in order to feel the jolt that I desperately needed in order to begin a day in my crazy world.
I get dressed to workout on
the treadmill, eat, shower, then do my vocal exercises, before I can begin to practice my song for the audition.
Only after I felt confident,
would I then proceed to get dressed. Procrastination has run deep for most of my life.
Since I can remember, I would wait for the last minute to gather all of my things.
My missing keys, pictures, Bio, oh and my music.
Then like a crazy “New Yorker!”
I’d practically fly down the stairs of my old walk-up apartment and onto the street, where I would have to fight to catch a cab during rush hour.
3rd Avenue looked like a race track full of yellow taxis speeding like crazy and even cutting each other off for the next passenger.
So as I’m getting closer to the audition at the B.M.G Entertainment Building, my heart begins to flutter and my nerves begin acting up.
I’m staring out of the dirty taxi window full of smudges and suddenly the
millions of hungry people come into focus, I can see the chaos of the city in full effect.
I could feel the rush of a million dreams and deals being made.
I then realized how I was simply one, in the millions of other people chasing their dreams
in the city of broken dreams.
By Indigo Sky
I’ve recently had a strong calling urging me to go to Mt. Shasta in Northern California, I first heard about the vortex during a road trip about 5 years ago while RV’ing thru the state of Oregon. It’s supposed to be the biggest vortex in the Western Hemisphere.
Our amazing planet has 7 chakras or energy centers, and Mt. Shasta is said to be our root chakra. It’s also considered to be the primal energy center of the planet.
Spiritual seekers from around the world are drawn here for truth and enlightenment, But Mt. Shasta has actually been home to at least 5 different indigenous tribes.
Just the other day I stumbled upon a documentary on the Winnemem wintu tribe, and ironically it was the same day that I awoke to “the calling”.
I can’t explain how or why but as I was making my bed, I noticed how I heard ringing in my ears, as I paused my minds eye kept seeing glimpses of the imagery of Mt. Shasta, it was almost as if I teleported.
Seemingly out of the blue I’ve become obsessed by this strange and inmate desire to seek Mt. Shasta and it’s beautiful purple aura.
It is believed that within the vortex we can receive and download information from other dimensions as well as the akashic records and ascended masters, angels and saints.
Mt. Shasta is known as a sacred Mountain that offers healing and to this day rituals are still being performed every year in August.
Mt. Shasta remains a mystery as there have been many stories reported about abductions and bizarre sightings of others beings from different dimensions,
as well as the Lemurians that are thought to inhabit an underground crystalline city.
What’s fascinating about this new obsession is the notion that I will receive a message or perhaps even a manifestation from my beloved father who sadly passed away 2 years ago this fall.
I believe that in the vortex every soul that ever existed can meet the living ones that have yet to ascend. Here we can meet with ascended masters and spirit guides, fairies and light beings.
I find a deep comfort in this newfound wisdom and I’d like to hold on to the belief, that our loved ones and all other beings of light can be found here and that healing and communication from other realms is possible inside of the vortex.
By Indigo Sky 8/9/18
When I was a little kid growing up I remember being such a scaredy-cat that I couldn’t possibly fathom the thought
of sleeping with my bedroom light off.
My sweet angel of a mother
had a special gift for knowing exactly what to say and
by her touch she knew
exactly how to soothe
my fears away.
With just a light touch she could
send healing waves of energy
that seemed to calm me down almost instantly and somehow miraculously I’d fall sound asleep in the dark until the morning.
My mother was a healer and
she had the power to heal
everything from my headache
to my belly aches.
Her comforting touch was the
most amazing feeling I have
I didn’t know about Reiki or healing of any kind, yet somehow I stumbled upon
it by developing a passion
for doing massages and chakra healing.
I would practice on my fiancé
during road trips and during
our intimate moments alone
I remember how would tell me
“OMG Baby! You Give a Bomb Ass Massage! “WTF”
That Shit Was Cosmic!
I explained to him that I was simply transmitting the light energy that I received from the
universe and that it was from
a higher source, I told him
that it was from God.
Today I can still recall that tingly feeling that I would get as a little girl, each time my mother would place her hands on me it was like a current of energy that shot through my body inducing the most tranquil feeling I could never forget.
I find it difficult to put into mere words…But I guess you could say, “It was Cosmic!”
So looking back I now realize
that my mother had laid the
foundation she was my healer
a true Goddess of love.
I’m amazed that somehow this innate knowledge was passed to me yet remained hidden deep within my soul and now today
as I write these words I too
have become a healer
and light worker.
Along my path I’ve discovered that we’ve all been given this incredible gift of becoming healers and thru spiritual awakening, meditation and chakra healing, the light body activation process begins.
bringing you closer to
enlightenment and spiritual bliss.
￼By Indigo Sky 8/7/18
Spiritual girl in the material world
Don’t let the weight of the world
interfere with your ascension.
Don’t give up and don’t let go
Jesus loves you more than
Elevate your state of mind
leave your burdens far behind
Expand your consciousness
and expand your mind
It’s thru your 3rd eye connection
that you’ll begin to fly
Breaking free from the 3rd dimensional plane
letting go of deep sorrow
A realm where spiritual wonders await, a place where you’ll no
longer feel afraid.
You can begin a new day
In a new world
like a forever changed girl
no longer lost.
Now you have a liquid mind
your floating in serenity
within the quantum realm
your dreams play out
you are the creator
that is responsible for your
Your the only that holds the
tools to unlock your power
where pure creativity
lies hidden, yet is overflowing
from this divine connection
to all that there is.
Find the freedom to access all realms and dimensions.
Break thru the dome
you ‘ll find the light
Illuminating every part
of who you really are.
By Indigo Sky
I pulled away from you, somehow fear got it’s tight grip over me and I let it take control.
I let you down, what was I so afraid of? You seemed to be everything I could want in a man so why am I running away? your probably asking yourself.
In my defense I felt deeply overwhelmed by the feeling that my life was about to change, and change can be very difficult to handle.
I wasted my life giving myself away to soulless people, lost in a dark place not knowing love and not having someone who genuinely cared about my spiritual wellbeing.
Sadly this has become the norm for me and so I made a promise to myself that I would never repeat the past mistakes. Perhaps it’s been too long since I let someone love me, you see I’ve built this fortress around my heart and it’s been hiding every scar.
Dear future lover, now I’m the one reaching out to you, Did I lose you? did I run away from my soul love? Could you actually be my twin flame? my heart wants to know.
Your everything I’ve been searching for, and yet the other night I closed the door.
I’ve spent the past week wondering if you are the one to share the next chapter in my life. I thought this out and I’ve come to terms with these mixed emotions and my foolish reluctance to give us a chance.
Today I find the courage to reach out to you and say that I’m sorry for letting you down. My personal issues and deep rooted fear took over and I pulled away from you. I’ve been resisting the very thing that I desperately wanted.
I tossed and turned almost every night and with each hour that passed me by, visions of you would cross my mind.
I even dreamt with you Tuesday night, was it a glimpse into our future together? I held your my face in my hands while I staring into your eyes, they were the bluest blue I had ever seen.
I felt the purest love emanating from your soul and upon awakening, it made me question everything in my life.Were you actually reaching out for me? Wondering why I pulled away so suddenly?
If you could understand the reasons why I disappeared it really just came down to fear, I feared another broken heart. You see I just recently began to pick up the pieces to my broken dreams and today I can honestly say that I’m no longer gonna let my fears hold me back.
All week long I found myself consumed with thoughts of us together and I don’t want to imagine that I ignored the sign and let love pass me by.
I can still feel your presence and I ask if you could give me another chance to see what we could be. You see my future lover I’ve had time to think this thru and I’ve come to the conclusion that the soul love I’ve been searching for resides in you.
*Dedicated to Kristof *
By Indigo sky
Many of us are starting to awaken and there is a hunger for spiritual truth as we seek a deeper understanding of life.
Here is a list of the signs that were revealed to me in subtle ways over a gradual period of time, as I began my journey to ascension. Maybe you are also experiencing one of the following :
1. Sudden interest in Yoga and Meditation.
2. Exploring Lucid Dreaming and Astral Travel/Projection.
3. Chakra Meditation and Kundalini yoga.
4. Opening of the 3rd eye.
Light Body Activation
5. Exercising outdoors with nature and natural sunlight.
6. Connecting with the vibrations of the plants and animals, the trees and the flowers.
7. Activating my pineal gland with the sun.
8. Awareness of nature, colors and details magnified.
9. Changing my music playlist to enhance my spiritual path .
10. Awareness of food and nutrition, resulting in the elimination of junk food and all processed foods.
11. Stopped drinking alcohol.
Eliminated toxic friendships and situations.
12. Shedding my desires for material possessions.
13. Stopped needing validation from people and social media.
14. Stopped needing a man or person to love me.
15. Sudden interest in what’s happening to our planet and wanting to help our wild life and marine life due to globalization and politics as well as pollution.
16. Feeling compassion and kindness.
17. Elevated happiness and bliss.
18. Trusting in the universe. 19. Having a connection to the divine light source, that which is God.
By Indigo Sky
I was barely 19 when I moved to New York City to chase the impossible dream of becoming an artist.
I believed that being successful was to have fame and millions in my bank account and to be constantly surrounded by my “squad”
I would eventually clash with my roommate for being ignorant and oblivious to the realities of life.
I was naive and I was ignorant, we disagreed on everything from music genre’s to fashion, even on how to decorate our cool & hip midtown Apartment.
I was pursuing a dance music project which annoyed the shit out of her, as she claimed it wasn’t real music, and that I sounded too nasal, and that I still haven’t found my true voice.
After the rude blow to my ego I opened up to the idea of allowing her to introduce me to “real music” ” as she would say.
She told me that the best singers are the ones that sing from their soul. From a deep place of pain and love and a pure connection to “God”.
She told me that to sing from your soul is to set your spirit free.
Wanda was my spirit guide which I couldn’t see at the time because I had barely known anything about spirituality, Buddhism, or spiritual wisdom from the ancient shamanic teachings.
In the first year or so my perception of her changed drastically, at first I thought she was crazy and I was reluctant to heed her words of wisdom and experience.
I remember coming home from my job at a busy midtown nightclub, and as soon as I’d walk thru the door, I would feel a sense pure spiritual energy and love and light.
I found her in a lotus position, singing and humming in a meditative trancelike state chanting, I remember the vibrations were so deep that I could feel it in my soul.
Despite resisting what overcame me that night, because I was always a club head and heavy into the dance scene as well as the shallow fashion scene, so as you can imagine I was very disconnected from her level of enlightenment, she was illuminated like a buddha.
Living in New York was one surreal yet never ending party full of Ecstasy, Molly, Coke, Special K, and alcohol. Along the constant invites to the hottest clubs, all of which made it extremely difficult for me to meditate yet alone find my true Inner voice and to be one “With all that there is” The one and only “God” himself.
My journey has been long, painful and discouraging, full of tragic moments, violence, loss, death, and despair.
I never found the fame and fortune that I once believed to be of importance.
I even lost the love of my life Eric to an unsolved murder ( more about that on a different post) After what seemed an eternity…at last I have found my inner peace and I have felt the Divine presence of love and light lift me up, and touch my soul.
At last I realize that with faith and trust, all wounds heal.
And to be quite honest…I feel the happiest I’ve ever felt and I’m thankful for the lessons and heartbreak that I had to endure.
Because it lead me on my Spiritual path to the Divine source of love, light, compassion and happiness which was deep inside of me all along.
* This is dedicated To Wanda*